It's been January since I last blogged on this spot. I had a number of amazing plans for the site, for the blog and for advertising my business. In fact, the year was planned for great things, ranging from really pushing my coaching to branching out and learning new skills and developing existing ones.
The sky, so to speak, was the limit.
Then a close family member became ill. They'd been ill for some time, but were managing to get through their routines, their life and their daily existence with a good sense of gusto. In January it just went rapidly downhill. February, they finally passed away to a new journey and hopefully new adventure.
In the blink of an eye all the lovely plans just became null and void. Life and family became the focus. There was no room for business, no room for hobbies and no room for plans. The future was put on hold. It was simply a case of living day to day with doing the best you can and dealing with the various emotions creeping up from grief.
On top of all this, suddenly living arrangements changed. A move of house was on the cards, an unplanned move. The energy hadn't fully returned and this now demanded a lot of attention and time. Throw in a husband studying an intensive course while just having changed jobs and you can see the stress levels were pretty high!
It is now the end of April, and I'm amazed how for nearly four months, I've managed to cope. Things become sharper, they become clear in terms of what is important and what isn't. In a way that clarity removes a lot of drama, excess baggage and uneccessary things that you might have ordinarily put up with.
The last while has been a roller coaster of emotions and feelings to say the least, but only now can I begin to see that the journey has developed my character. It's nice to see a clearer glade ahead where I can relax and gather my energy again and find out how this new character development fits into the bigger picture of who I am.
Sure I want to have plans, I want to plan ahead in some way and have a focus and direction. I just don't want it to be so misguided that the important things get overlooked and only focused upon when a death occurs or someones ill. I want to enjoy life, enjoy planning and just roll with it all. I'm going to start by taking a walk on the beach while the sun is still out...we'll see how the rest of it goes! : )
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